Breaking bad news...

Assalamualaikum w.b.t

Tell u what???i've just wake up!!!!

Orang nak tido aku baru bangun, bagus la sangat ( =______= )

My caffeine tolerance has increase...

Padahal pagi tadi minum white coffee kot, tu pon ngantuk lagi...

Biasa tak minum, takdela ngantuk gini...

Kalau dulu minum white coffee memang kompem tak ngantuk, malam pon tak leh tido, siap ada palpitation thoroughout the day...

Then, i have to take half of it only...

This one during exam ah, if not then im not gonna take caffeine(ada gak kekadang =p )

Minum caffeine, tido tak teratur, bagus sangat la untuk kulit ku ini...huhuhuhu

Mintak maap kulit, pasni tak wat dah...

Sebenarnya nak citer, ada sorang pakcik ni kat wad...

Admitted sebab kuning, progressive abdominal distension aka ascites...

Lepas dah siasat sume turn out this pakcik has hepatoma(kanser hati) end stage...

Here come the role of breaking bad news...

Doctor bagitau pasal kanser hati tu sume then, JANGKAHAYAT 6 BULAN...

Masa tu pakcik and makcik tu senyap je...just angguk2 apa yang dr cakap...
Tiba-tiba

Pakcik : takde cara lain ke dr?

Dr : pilhan lain chemotherapy

Makcik : kalau tak buat chemo 6bulan, kalau buat chemo?

Dr : tambah lagi 6 bulan...

Masa tu seriesly rasa sebak sangat...

Pakcik tu sangat2 la cooperate, sangat baik, peramah, ramai student datang nak examine pon senyum je...

Bagi je...

I still remember how cheerful he is at first...

Bila tengok muka dia masa dr cakap ada lagi 6 bulan, boleh urus apa2 yang patut, sedara jauh nak jumpa ke...

Ya Allah, sebak sangat...i just bite my tongue to prevent something from happened...

Cannot look at his face at all...

Second case was 17 years old girl, previous history osteosarcoma(kanser tulang) with lung metastasize(kanser tulang merebak ke paru-paru)

Kami gi wat examination kat dia...

Yang ni pon cooperative sangat...

Sure sangat2 ramai dah yang examine dia,tapi dia still bagi kitorang wat examination on her...

Habis examine, ask history sikit then borak2 ngan dia...

Tengah2 borak

Adik : kenapa adik kena penyakit ni orang lain tak kena??

Kami (k.izah, kira, me) : ................

Seriously i cannot answer her question in that situation...

Frankly speaking i think in this situation she doesnt need all the scientific reason or evidence based or whatsoever brilliant information...Confirm dr dah cerita sume kat dia sebab dia dah pon jalani pembedahan untuk kanser tulang tu...

What she needs just a support...emotionally, mentally...

Then, as usual kak izah is the savior...

Kak izah : sebab Allah sayang adik...Allah nak hapuskan dosa-dosa adik...Bila dosa Allah dah ampunkan, boleh masuk syurga kan...Adik kuatkan??akak tau adik kuat...

Adik : ...(angguk je tapi tunduk)

Mata kak izah dah berair pon masa cakap tu...

Pastu kami beredar...Takleh duduk dah situ nanti karang hujan tiga2 sapa nak tanggung??hehehe

Sebak sangat...

Mak dia pon cakap ngan kami takleh nak tengok muka kami...

This young pretty girl(seriously cantik) struggling over her disease...

Thinking of taking SPM while in need of chemotherapy after this...

And me struggling over my pimples problem!!!!thinking about it all day long...

Ya Allah jauhnya beza...

Then i know, how lucky i am...

I dont know if im strong enough if Allah give me whatever ujian...

Tapi setiap ujian yang Allah bagi tu, Allah tahu kemampuan hamba-Nya kan???

At least bila kita dah takde nanti, hopefully there will be our kindness that people wont forget...

till then, see ya...

Assalamualaikum w.b.t

Permudahkanlah segalanya...

Assalamualaikum w.b.t

ربي يسر ولا تعسر ,ربي تمم بالخي

rabbi yassir wa la tu’assir ,rabbi tammim bil khayr ,aameen.

Makbulkan doaku Ya Allah...

Ya Allah permudahkanlah segalanya...

Kuatkan hati dan semangatku...

Berikan keberanian kepadaku...

Murahkan rezeki ku...

Ya Allah jika dia benar untukku, dekatkanlah hatinya dengan hatiku...

Jika dia bukan milikku, damaikanlah hatiku dengan ketentuan-Mu...

Eh, sori2 salah sambungan doa...huhuhu

till then,see ya...

Assalamualaikum w.b.t

Tanda-tanda stress...

Assalamualaikum w.b.t

Setiap orang ada tanda2 yang buat dia sedar yang dia berada dalam keadaan stress di saat dan ketika itu...

True @ False????muahahaha

Dan apabila tanda2 itu datang, anda akan cari jalan untuk menenangkan diri bukan?

Seperti tumbuk dinding, hantuk kepala kat tiang, lompat tinggi2 sampai tembus syiling...

Astaghfirullahalazim, pe kejadahnya la aku mengarut ni...

Ok, back to the point...

Satu benda yang nia perasan ialah bila stress je, i'll start to have this shoulder pain...

Mula2 ingatkan penat galas beg ke mende ke...

Tapi lelama perasan yang xbawak benda2 berat pon ada jugak shoulder pain ni...

Thennnnn, i realize that whenever im having this pain, there must be something that stress me out...

Guess what???

The most frequent i have this stress symptom was during my orthopaedic posting...

I guess my body hate  doesnt like it that much, not me ahhhh...muahahaha

And ive started having this shuolder pain back...

I guess its because of pro3...huhuhuhu

Lagi satu tanda adalah nia akan start ada tics...

And what worse was it is at my face!!!

I'll start having this mouth and cheek twitching...

Haaaa, dah ada bendalah ni maksudnya dah kena calm myself down la...

Its really happen out of your control sometimes...

Tapi bila dah sedar tu boleh la control...

Sebab kita je yang tau pasal diri kita kan...

Jadi pape pon kita je yang boleh buat keputusan samada nak dibiarkan je atau pun nak kawal...

Semua pilihan ada kat tangan kita...

Baik ke buruk sume kita yang pilih sendiri...

Betul tak???

Haihhh, nape tetiba bagi motivasi diri kat sini pulak ni...hahahaha

By the way, we went to PD during CNY holiday...

And it was funnn...

I luv it...

Dah lama tak g bercuti ngan adik beradik...

Tapi malangnya ada lagi dua orang tang tak dapat gi...

Klu sume dapat gi mesti lagi meriah...

Dua2 nak umi...

Dah tu camane...

She's all the way smiling up to ear, and me baby sit her daughter down there...huhuhu

Ibu2 yang busy kejar anak masing2...wakakakaka

Dah ada anak, gini la jadinya...

Btw, since i have to babysit my sister's child so all the pic were taken by my brother...

ok la, nak kena sambung study balik ni...

till then, see ya...

Assalamualaikum w.b.t

Ways to say good bye...

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Ikma yang suruh dengar lagu ni mula2...

dia suruh dengar lirik lagu ni, best katanya...

Memang terbaik la cara dia nak gitau kawan dia tu...

Kena dengar sekali ngan lagu baru best...

She went down in an airplane
Fried getting suntanned
Fell in a cement mixer full of quicksand
Help me, help me, I'm no good at goodbyes!
She met a shark under water
Fell and no one caught her
I returned everything I ever bought her
Help me, help me, I'm all out of lies
And ways to say you died

She was caught in a mudslide
Eaten by a lion
Got run over by a crappy purple Scion
Help me, help me, I'm no good at goodbyes!
She dried up in the desert
Drowned in a hot tub
Danced to death at an east side night club
Help me, help me, I'm all out of lies
And ways to say you died

So, sesapa nak try lepas ni boleh la ^_________^

till then, see ya...

assalamualaikum w.b.t

Crocodile in stomach...

Assalamualaikum w.b.t

I'm having an interview on thursday...

Some of us will be having their interview tomorrow...

And that lucky person is my rumet...hahaha

Now she is remembering all the menteri's name dan yang sewaktu dengannya^____^

Cantik ko gamba aku...

Blonde siap...wakakakaka

Having 3 person staring at you alone in a quiet room...

Argggghhh, suffocated+scary+crocodile in stomach la jawabnya..

Pesanan terakhir orang dari academic office

"bring your knowledge"

Bab ni yang aku lemah semangat ni =______=

Jangan la kena serangan knowledge deficiency syndrome plak tetiba kat situ nanti...huhuhuhu

Insha Allah...

Pray for me...

till then, see ya...

Assalamualaikum w.b.t